Friday, October 16, 2015

Small Glories


We got the best seat in the house.
What a view. The vast empty
above propped by glitter,
laser lights masked the dark,
straight beams mirrored on the
water deep below, shadowed
a roped corner, a ring in which we fenced.


On my heels for fourteen hours,
mascara, doubly-applied, held
my eyelashes rigid and I smiled
Red Tomato.

We had an adult conversation going,
a familiar accent of long time ago.
People with jobs, business cards,
shook hands, touched elbows,
clinked beer bottles, did a little shuffle
dance, a merry-go-round of this thing called
mingling. Is this rehearsal for real life,
or is this it? 

The red I wore barked, wanton
for attention, and there were few
who wanted to strip it off me.

I forgive, but my elephant memory knows you.

Fifteen hours on, my legs were jelly
and I climbed the steps, back
to a cold room.

Saturday, October 3, 2015

On Dating #2

God.
God. 
I just had a narrow escape.
It's this, isn't it?
What you've been trying to tell me?
I'm sorry for being deaf to your voice.
I couldn't read the currents
you want me to follow.
It may help if I have a map,
but I know it won't be fair.
You let me dive headfirst,
and I'll let you pull me out.
It's the deal.

While we're at it, may I just ask,
how many literate, monogamous,
family-minded, self-reliant,
tax-paying, porno-averting,
heterosexual, unmarried males have you made
in the last thirty to thirty-five years?
I just need one, please.
That's a short description, by the way.
I have the complete list
and right now I'm at #146:
"He shall have no previous ballet training."
I will be very jealous if he had.
The list is real.
But we don't need to get all ticked.
A two-third will be nice.

Oh, well.
A girl has to ask.
Or learn how to.

On Dating #1

I'm not a fucking charity case.
Nor am I a doormat for your grimes.
The pieces are finally coming together,
and I don't like what it's telling me.
I hate the notion of human interference
in the business of strictly you and I.
The fact that you approached me with
this seed of thought, abhorrent, and
I welcome you with naivete,
repulses me more than I can say.
You have your issues.
(I shall make no judgment,
just know that you're a creep)
I have mine. Glad that you saw
only a fraction of me.
Now I know why you wouldn't let me
see, dig, claw.
You breached that trust first.
Big fucking Bang, I'd say.
Scrub, rinse, scrub. Repeat.

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Of course I'd like to add "Go fuck yourself" somewhere but it won't gel to the piece.

Thursday, October 1, 2015

Late Night Snack

I'm devastatingly hungry.
Those less of men will think me
frivolous for using such an adverb
lightly in the light of today's reality
but I do intend it with all my might,
that I'm hungry to the point of
being devastated by it.
There is a hole of unfathomable depth,
a hollow point that no tsunamis can
satiate, and I fill it with late night trips
to the hawker centers with 24/7 dim sum stall.

As I struggle with the tight knots of the steaming
hot plastic, a thought resonates,
of somebody who said something to a poet,
how they tried to create importance out of
nothing at all,
and here I am, in my kitchen, in the dark,
with two chicken feet and a pair of chopsticks,
and I ramble on - how self-centered, how
egoistic, how self-conscious are you to
think that this can be a poetry.

But I'm still devastated and hungry,
and those two don't mix well, ever since
I got the first whiff of that city far away,
from a woman's arm (or perhaps it was her hair),
and it reminded me of you.
Everything reminds me of you.
How funny, how silly,
I shall forget about this in the morning.
But just for the moment,
just now, I will eat and I will forget
you.